Going back to flying
I never intended to be a flight attendant forever. Not that I have any ill will towards the people who have flown for a long time but I started when I was 23 years old and I assumed that at some point I would get tired of it but I also assumed that Delta wouldn’t use the most insane qualifications to be a supervisor or instructor. That was my plan. If Delta had hired me to be a supervisor or instructor I know I would still be there now. I’m internally working hard to get passed that but I know that’s where a lot of my anxiety and anger is coming from. I wanted to stay with Delta I just wanted to stop flying. The job I have now I’ve already been promoted not a real increase in pay but an increase in responsibility. Why is it that I’ve been at a my present job for less than six months and they’re increasing my responsibility they see that I have a good work ethic but a place I where I gave my youth to, a place where I gave 90% of my holidays and weekends too told me that I wasn’t qualified? That’s where my anger comes from and that’s what I have to work through. If Delta would have “promoted” which is a funny word because to a lot of flight attendants going into the office isn’t a promotion but a demotion, but if they would have hired me then JAB and I wouldn’t be having a hard time getting a loan right now because my bills probably wouldn’t have gotten behind. I know I shouldn’t be putting on the blame on Delta but I am in my heart totally and completely pissed off. I really am. I am angry because to me, Delta fucked me over. I know they really didn’t because I had a choice to leave a long time ago but… Ok I have to get passed it. See this is why I’m not posting stuff anymore. Bad alcohol, bad, bad.
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