Discombobulated

I’ve been in a strange all week. I’m not really sure why. Not really a bad mood but just a little discombobulated. I don’t know if it’s the leaving Delta thing or not. They have not accepted my resignation as of yet. My supervisor called me and said that we needed to talk about it because I was giving up a lot of time. But not really, in my eyes it would take another 15 years before I could even think about early retirement. That’s not what I want.

I know my health has been bothering me a lot. I know my diabetes is kind of out of control right now. I’m not taking my medicine the way I should and I know that I’m not eating right. It depresses me which makes me what to just eat a bowl of ice cream which makes my blood sugar go wacky.

I discovered that my favorite music station growing up in college in Seattle is on line. 89.5 played nothing but dance music when I was in college. I would spend so many Friday nights in my room with my roommates drinking and listening to the station. I miss dancing. Am I too old to go out dancing now?

The death of Luther Vandross has hit me kind of hard because he was one of the first records I ever bought and one of the few artists that I followed most of the time. He was one of those artist that I didn’t really follow that much but I had to have him in my music collection. I was watching a documentary on him and I wonder if the weight yo-yo did him in. Then I thought if that could be me. I’m not sure why I have the health thing on my mind.

I guess right now things are just at a cross roads. It’s not a bad thing, just a thing that I’ll have to get past. I’ve done it before and I’ll do it again. I’m going to have to force myself to get back into my health regimen once I go back to work

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