Can't think of anything good to go here.

I’m telling myself that I’m lucky. I’m lucky that I have a job, that my parents are alive, that I don’t have any rare or common disease but I’m tired of being depressed and let down. Does that make sense? I’m tired of being tired of being tired. I truly believe that my job is 75% of the problem. I’m at the point of just saying I quit and going to Target or Best Buy to work. I don’t really want to do that but I don’t want to deal with my airline anymore. They’ve completely taken away all the joy I’ve tried to muster this past week. How do I let that happen? I’ve applied for a job at DEFACS. It pays nothing but I would be helping parents with children get welfare and food stamp benefits. Even though I feel like a lot of people abuse the system I want a job where I can feel like I’m helping people. I want to be the one person who people want to go to because I will help them and not just make them feel as if they are a number.

I’d really hoped that my new year wouldn’t end the way it began but it seems like it’s going to. I hate that.

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