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Ok so here are some things I wanted to just discuss. I got an IPOD for Christmas. I’m a little more excited over it than I thought I was going to be. I thought that I had a “huge” music collection but the IPOD ate it up with tons of room to spare. I do like it but I’m afraid to carry it around because I’m afraid I’ll loose it like I’ve lost my other mp3 players. We’ll see the only thing I don’t like is that the battery is internal so I can never replace it. Or can I? I don’t know enough about Apple and their products. I also don’t love Itunes. I do like it a lot but I’m much happier with my MusicMatch because it can tag my songs. ITunes can’t. I don’t think it does.
I don’t understand why I am attracted to the people or types I’m attracted to. Yes I think Brad Pitt and George Clooney et al are attractive but I like or attracted to people who others find only slightly attractive like this guy , and this guy
and this guy and this guy and yeah this guy too. Sometimes I feel like I’m just too strange it’s like my taste in music I can listen to Destiny’s Child and then Emma Burton and then Maroon 5. That can’t be normal for most people. Maybe that explains why I had so many acquaintances in high school and not a lot of friends because I bounced around too much.
Today at work I was reading about the disaster in Asia. How frightening is that. I mean really who hasn’t had that nightmare of being swallowed up by water. That is truly one of my biggest nightmares because I can’t swim well and the thought of drowning makes me shiver.
I had a discussion at work about the war and how the democrats and the liberal media hate the troops and the war. I told her that yes I hate this war. I don’t know why we’re there. There are tons of countries that need to be cleaned up. I don’t see us trying to liberate the countries in Africa. There’s some strong Al Qaeda connections in Saudi Arabia but we stay out of there anyway we got into this discussion and I told her that in my heart I have some conservative views. I’m still kinda on the fence on Gay marriage, I still think that in theory a household needs a mother and a father. I do believe that there are people who take advantage of the welfare system but I just could never be a republican because they seem to be so closed minded. Of course she told me that she wasn’t. That she was for Civil Unions and Abortion and for affirmative action in colleges and some other limited situations. I realized that we agreed on a lot but she continued to call her self a conservative and I called myself a progressive liberal. Maybe that’s the problem in our country.
For some reason I’m looking forward to the New Year. I know it’s really just another day on a calendar. Nothings really going to change but it’s like we have a chance to reinvent ourselves. That’s what I look forward to. Of course this year hasn’t been the best. But in a lot of ways I’m blessed in the fact that as far as I know I’m healthy and so are my family. Even though I see my father and mother getting older and older as the months go on.
I didn’t send out Christmas cards this year even though I bought some. The reason is pretty selfish but I really wanted to see who would send me one first. I know that you should give cards to receive cards but let’s face it, times are tough in the money department and I’m tired of sending cards to people who won’t send them back to me. So this year I’m sending New Years cards which I should really be doing right now but I’m not in the writing mood. I like to write (or should I say type using handwriting font) a few words on my cards just to give people a quick update even though I usually lie about what’s going on when it comes to my job.
Lastly, I’m really thinking about taking a break from diaryland for a while. Of course I say that every time my Gold membership comes up for renewal and I always end up keeping it because I like a place to vent but I see that I’m venting and doing nothing else and I wonder if this is more of a hindrance than a help. I don’t feel like I have anything insightful to say. I was reading in the paper about the difference between a blog and a diary. The paper pretty much slammed the diary part saying that it’s mostly for 15 year old girls. Of course that’s not true but at times especially when I go and link the pictures to the men I feel are worthy of my attention I think they may be right. Shouldn’t I be writing more about the war or about the troubles in the airline industry or fighting for Gay rights or Black rights or Black Gay rights? Maybe I will but not tonight. I have to show you the pictures of the men I find attractive.
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