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The weekend is over and again I’m wondering if it’s all worth it. Saturday JAB was able to get off work early so we had a good day. Doing nothing really but run errand I was looking for some mirrors for my bathroom. I looked everywhere before I ended up where I usually do and that’s Target. They had exactly what I was looking for as always. I’m trying to hold back money because I’m going to take a month off with out pay in June and I need as much money as possible. JAB and I ended going out for Mexican food and then went out to Mary’s. I didn’t have the urges that I’ve had before so maybe things are getting better or maybe the newness is gone and it’s just a place we go. We are starting to see people that we know but I think I’ve realized that you can’t meet friends at bars. Who knows. I had 3 beers thinking that would not get me sick or too drunk. I didn’t feel really that drunk when we got home. I just had a good buzz going. I went to bed and then forgot that I didn’t drink any water. I drank some water and 15 minutes I was in the bathroom throwing up. My body is deserting me. In college I was the Shot King. I did the most shots of Tequila in one night. Something insane like 14 or something. I’m by no means advocating that behavior. It was stupid and I would never do that ever again. But I used to be able to hold my alcohol. And now I can’t. JAB and I slept until 3 today. The whole day was wasted. We talked about it and decided that maybe we should go out after we have margaritas. Or maybe we just shouldn’t go out anymore at all.

I’m so glad that the POW’s were released. One of them is from Georgia and it was so nice to hear some happy news. The little time that I was up I was watching CSPAN, yes I am a big nerd. They were showing a live broadcast of an anti-war rally in Los Angeles. I can see why a lot of people think that the anti-war people are anti-American. They seemed pretty un-American but then I figure that only the extremes are shown on TV or the radio. I am against this war but I don’t think America is this big huge Ogre who wants to take over the whole Arab world. At least I hope not.

Finally, I’m watching a show called Black Slash . I’m a big Martial Arts buff and I think that Russell Wong . is pretty hot. It’s one of those teen angst type show which gets on my nerves. Pretty much I just look up when the fight scenes happen. My only problem with the show is this. Like most shows they have the token black guy who is played by Brandy’s brother. My first problem is that he is credited as Ray J. What kind of name is that Ray. J. Don’t you have a real last name? Then of course he has to have this “I’m down and must use Ebonics because I’m down” This is why when I tell people that I received a scholarship for school, I’m asked what sport I played. I know that people have to work and it’s tough to be an actor. But if I acted I wouldn’t do that type of work. A flight attendant I know husband is an actor. He’s black. He was classically trained at some big time school in NYC and in London. He was the understudy for the Othello role in some big England production. I’ve seen his work and he’s good. He’s tall, good looking; all the stuff you would think would make him a big star. He went out to LA and everyone told him that he wasn’t Black enough. People actually told him that. What does that mean? He’s Black. He’s a Black man but he’s not Black enough. Life is just crazy.

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