Happy Birthday to Me
As I stated last year at this time, it's all about me. This year things are not crashing financially at the same rate, I guess leveling off. JAB got into a car accident and to me is addicted to the pain medication now and is also or has always been addicted to alcohol. I realize that his lack of and desire for growth and my constant desire to find a way to grow and be the person I've always wanted to be, is coming to a head. I don't know if it's just because he's gettig older or what.
If I had the money and if I could explain to my parents why I'm leaving "my" house I would leave. It's not the love it's the fact that I feel stuck. He's not going to change and it doesn't make sense for me to continue to expect him to change. I have to change. I say that every year...
So Happy Birthday to me.